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Saturday, January 27, 2007

To Find A Gal That Equally Love Me <--- Not Yet Done

To Buy A Car <--- Not Yet Done

To Have A Family To Settle Down With Kids <--- Not Yet Done

To Play Piano Well Enough <-- In Progress

To Write A Song To my Love ones <--- In Progress

To Have lots of money to spend <--- Not Yet Done

To Have a Stable Career <--- In Progress

To Decorate My Room With Furnitures <-- In Progress

To Make My Face A better complextion <-- Not Yet Done

To Build Up Myself To look Good <--- Not Yet Done

To Have a Aim or a goal in what i wish to do <-- Not Yet Done

To Dress Like Super Star <-- Not Yet Done

To Make Gals Fall For me <--- Not Yet Done

To Be Famous <--- Not Yet Done

To Setup My House Sound proofing <-- Not Yet Done

To Quit Smoking <--- Not Yet Done

To Make My Room That look like a jamming studio <--- Almost impossible with such small sq ft . haha

*Ray*
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Thursday, January 25, 2007

My Thoughts

All The While i been thinking and thinking over n over again , i'm a person that scare to lose something , i am not those type of person easily forget about the past . Tends To think in a way to dominate everything in my path , maybe because expectation of is too low . Thats why things seems to be so simple , thats why i give up easily , back in few days ago i sat down with a friend who was in the same reservist date with me , We are out on the field camp and i learn alot of things from him , the way he talk to his gf its like friends , and they can plan as and where to go like nobodies business . They Seems to be so closed yet funny at all times , 2 yrs ago he was riding a bike , 2 yrs later he came out a car LEXUS and he shared with me how he made it into his business . His not high educated , but his got the brain to make money , and he told me he learn thru by seeing books , upgrading yourself is so important . i start to talk about my life , i sure know lots of things , COmputers , sound system , recording , video recording , and much more , but i'm not focus enough , i do have the talent to do but i definitely don't have brains in making business . I'm mutlitasking but i don't know where to start . Beside Mouthing about " I wan to get settle down and find a gal and get married have a forunate family " but i'm still far away from my dreams , it ain't gonna happened if i am still stuck without knowning my path of future . Maybe one day i should really start to sit down , do nothing but just jobs and money , because nowadays not just jobs industrial are expecting high performance produced by you , EVEN THE GAL's MUM wants them to married a rich guy . I think sooner or later i should stop all this nonsence , i got a family to support , i have to think of my mum , i have to think of my career and my future . Be Daring and face whatever is infront of me , accept fate alone and work thru the way . People changes , no point to keep past life into new life . I should learn how to forget and never think back ever again . This is what i learn from many pple in this world .

*Ray*
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Friday, December 29, 2006

Peoples

So many pple in this world don't know where they belongs . There are pple that can't make up decisions . And some are over confidence . pple get along just to be happy right? but there are pple tat get together to suffer unwillingly . Maybe i think i am one of the most fortune one . i dun feel what pple feel before . i only suffer thru my own . i telling myself to be strong . Often good things never comes to me , pple been saying " your time is not right " haha , ya but its a sentence to make u feel better . But no matter what happens . no one can help u , u have to walk your own path , see your own world in order to brightened up your day . i was once a guy that doesn't like to explore about anything . Till days have passed , i finally notice that there is not just one thing i should go for . i need to throw away unnecessary things inside my life . I must go forward , if i fall i will stand on back with my own legs . Pain and suffering is no longer a thing can brings me down . Because i live my life just because my life is equals to our parents . Back in the days . where your parents suffer when u were young . i dunno man ~ =D , almost all the gals i liked said the same thing to me " you are more then a friend then bf " pple just wan me to be their best friends . and i dunno why most of them said this " i intro you to one of my friends " . I don't understand why my life is full of channeling , pple can get direct connection , but for my case maybe its fated ^^ . i 'm always alone , pple fear for my happiness . but i just wan a life of myself . If u are borned soft hearted , whatever they say , u simply just say ok and never a 2nd word . guess this is my 2mth that i blog lol. don't think anyone looking at it right now stupid tag box is down and its always downed zzzzzz

*Ray*
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Wednesday, November 15, 2006

A Love that never been found

I totally lost myself into relationships , i forget how love is liked . i can't feel what is that , its just like never been found again. I stood far away ... looking outside .. i ... just feel empty , Yes everyone needs someone that can care and to be cared . No matter how harsh , when u said u give up , in the end u will still fall into it .

But seriously i just felt so empty now , i don't know whats gonna happened . i just found out that whats the net been saying about me is true..

"Your dating skills are AVERAGE!You scored a 65 out of a possible 100 points. Youâ€™re pretty good with the ladies, but you can be intimidated by a woman who is exceptionally attractive. There are some women out there that you consider to be â€œout of your leagueâ€.Sometimes when you see a woman youâ€™d like to approach you become immobilized with fear, and by the time you figure out what to say, she's goneâ€¦There have probably been several times in your life when a woman lost interest in you, and you just couldnâ€™t figure out why. Maybe she gave you her phone number and then didnâ€™t return your calls, or maybe you went out on a few dates with her and things seemed to be going good, when all of a sudden she became mysteriously unavailable.You might wonder why some of the women you are attracted to donâ€™t feel the same way, when all of your female friends tell you how lucky any girl would be to have youâ€¦These are problems that almost all guys run into at one time or another, but very few men know exactly what to do to prevent these things from happening in the first place.These are problems that many guys have, but very few know how to actually solve.The good news is that you can learn to attract these exceptional women... and even have them chasing you for dates! "

So When will there be a day till i finally feel love . There's no answers to it . Things just drifting far away .

*Ray*
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Sunday, September 17, 2006

Ray's Life

I always back out when i feel i'm useless , and also i tend to give up on something that i wanted... thats why i'm always so far away behind . Everyone wants and needs the best , but i am always in the mininium , i'm too simple that nature can't accept . simple becomes complicated sometimes , just to make everyone leaves me . its not a gaining pity from people , its just that i must learn how to grow , i must learn my mistakes that i had been thru last time . i know myself too well , people around that can't understand just like the same as most of the people who had their own ideas and living ways . Sometimes trouble comes , there are some pple wanted to face it , and some others just head away and leave it . i been a coward for quite a while , i can't accept anything that i wanted to have . i tend to stand a distance away .

Is this right or is this wrong?

People saying " cuz its not your days right now , one day will have it " everyones giving the same opinion , everyday , everytime . Maybe even gods dun know why created humans with billions and billions of characters . look at the wars out there , that prove everything , humans will do anything to make themself a better life . Well known pple must always learn how to be humble , willing to learn and apply kindness . from young to old , each day everyone is learning how to be one.

i think i said too much , getting crazy soon haha

*Ray*
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Tuesday, September 12, 2006

A Guy who been thru so many

hmmm, finally thinking of coming back to blog in this boring place . its been quite long since i'll be blogging . haizz . nowadays its like so moody. Money , u , love . U get money but u might lose lots of things sometimes. Looking for a new love is like fearing to accept . which u think its impossible to love someone cuz u scare to face the truth . Everyone have their own thinking which, they don't even know what they doing .

By looking at a picture of someone and u feel that u wanted to feel her . but the distance is so far away. and the distance was so far away. the more u getting near to the person , wonderful things can happened , if the person accepted u . And also awkward things will happened when u are being rejected .

Envy , Glad , whats the used .

Even sales make fake faces and sometimes u have to talk nonsence to the customers , even its not your kind of character that are talkative , u need interact to gets things done . pple dun care u are willing or not willing to do it . Its the world that changes .

I'm afraid of everything now ~ and i noe that no one can help u , u have to learn your way to push out of the barrier that is blocking u . its just the matter of time ....

I'm very Tired now need to bed , good night thanks for seeing this blog hahah 1.16am DAMN!

bye bye

*Ray*
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A Guy who been thru so many

*Ray*
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Monday, November 07, 2005

Heart stopped

My heart stopped , i am dead , i feel nothing , its good to be in this way . guess need more blood to carry on pumping haha

*Ray*
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